Random....

I had a really random dream, one that included cats, magic powers, a killer kiddie playground maze full of weird obstacles that killed you( like a pool full of alligators, my sister, and cute chibi people...

Yeah......


My dreams are pretty weird.....
( I think I gotta lay off the anime)

-I Liltih Kitsune

Not one of my best days.

I got locked in my room today, by my own stupidity naturaly, but for a few hours, i felt what pure agony was truly like. I was delusional, feeling like a caged animal, with god being the idoit kide that kept provoking me, but only after some time, did i realize what i was feeling,

Fear.

Not ever, in my short existence did I truly, fear something. Hatred, shock, anoyance, yes. but the feeling of imcompetence, of dread, the way my heart picked up, beating profoundly on my chest, was something I was not acostumed, but it made me understand myself just a bit more. Then after trying to break the door open, I cried. A lot. It felt lke everything came crashing down on me, all that happened these past 3-4 years only really beared it's ugly prophetic fangs now, not only did it bear it fangs, it was constanly snidedly commenting on everything, and then I realized that god wasn't provoking me. My past was ( to top it off, My past took the form of a dog *shudders*). Then the pest finnaly left me alone. Alone. Like I always am. The sadness sinking in, the loss. Then slowly I poured all my anger out, taking it all on the pillow (poor pillow it will never be as fluffy again, good thing pillows are deaf) and then looked blankly at the the random laughing faces floating around me, and started listening to music. Then i cried again, beacuse i made the stupid mistake of chosing songs that ended in death, or in rape, but annnnnywayyy.....

After crying, i finnaly had the common sense of trying to preocupy myself doing something that did not ultimatly lead to me looking a the door and either showing it my middle finger, or crying again. SO i started to read,

about a kid.

That was in aslym.

Who was locked inside a room.

and who was ranting random things to himself.

Yeah.... next time i'll go for little red ridding hood, but the story was pretty funny, and I felt sorry for this kid, and cheered him on as he escaped from the evil people. SO after a while, my mom asked in a less crude ,but still weied out way, What the hell was i doing in my room for such a long time, and why the fuck was my door locked. So after sulking a bit and swallowing my pride. I had to tell her I locked myslef in my room.( I still don't know how the hell I did it!)

All in Alll.

Not one of my favorite days.

=(

Give me your hand
But realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave
And carry on my own life

-I. Lilith Kitsune

So uninspired.......

So here's some music to take up some unused space.

This is an awesome band called Blue October. (They totally get cookies from me.)

This one is self-explanitory.

The Cold Hard Truth....

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Love the way you lie

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie

Was it wrong,
Then why did it feel so right,
Imorality never left me feeling so high.
Condemend by the one who loved me most
I didn’t care to try to find,
The awnser to the one question burning inside.
Stabability is a virture that sadly
I did not have knowledge of,
Couldn’t notice what was right there in front,
Now I’m crying down inside
Misssing the harshness of the situation
Opposites Just as Ice on Fire
Burning you Inside
Freezing what was rightfully once mine.
And yet having the nerve to ask why.







-I. Lilith Kitsune

Little Things.

Just random Things I wrote when I should have been paying atention.


I am.

With a certain just,
and with knives in rust.
Peircing eyes iluminate dawn.
I am.

With a mind in peril.
insanity coming in barels.
I am.

Timely, teethering songs.
with a melody of an unspoken heart.
I am.

Night with a moon in full.
The darkness that is missunderstood.
I am.

The fox which awakens at four.
Which once beloved not merely in folklore.
I am.

A black sheep in a pasture full,
of blundering idiots.
I am.

but with a room full of people,
Telling you no.

I am.
Am I?





Prophecy of Confrontation

In last, the dime drops,
in first, It cries.
In the downpour of human existence,
On a faithful all hallow's eve.
What are we here for?
Why did you fight?
What is the significance,
Of all you thought was right?
Why did you follow me?
Why do you love?
For whowm did you die for?
Why DID you love!
Days and night start to blend,
Fragile causes, cease to suspend,
Three days of fragile night will sigh,
Until he sees what blood has left.
And In the final light, of darkest day,
It will continue to exist as black is left.
Emotions that long have died,( that should have died)
Will overcome her task.

At lovers hand.
both shall perish.
One will live,
Forever in ascending darkness,
To eternal torment.
And in heaven,
NONE SHALL PASS.




-I. Lilith Kitsune.